There's this file on my computer called 'proof I know my shit'. I think an AI suggested it one time I was questioning my life with it through deep questions about purpose and what makes things good. I found it smart to rely less on 'what I feel I'm worth right now', and more on actual proof I can't deny. So I created it.
I've added two entries to it today. which feels like a direct reinsurance from the universe, given I was NOT doing that well on the confidence front yesterday. It's actually rare that I remember this file even exists.
I've set up a reminder to use my monthly review as an opportunity to add to it, but I'm still very blurry on what constitutes a 'proof I know my shit'.
so far, it has :
- compliments from people I trust
- extraordinary feedback (like that one time a blind man told me my Podia course was so clear he was able to follow it without any issues)
- stuff my clients have been able to achieve thanks to my work with them
- positive interactions with people I admire
- projects I was able to put together
- stuff I'm proud of (I realize I'm always proud of what I produce on some level, because I consider it already extraordinary that I'm able to produce anything at all, but there's stuff I'm proud of more than other stuff you know?)
- ways I've reacted or interacted or dealt with something (usually something along the lines of 'I was able to do this things I was not able to do before' or 'I stood my ground')
Looking at this list, I realise my favorite and the rarest category is the last one. I should be more aware of these.
Maybe examples would be a good thing (also might be a good thing to be more open about what I'm proud of in public) :
- Upsold a client mid-consultation: "do you want me to just do it for you?" 350€, yes, done. Spotted the opportunity in real-time and closed it. Would have been too precious to do that even a couple of months ago.
- Invested in myself by buying a walking pad and actually integrated it into my life. It's not sitting in a corner. It's part of my days now.
- C. (client) updated me on the decision I advised her about, and not only it is working but I didn't have to ask : "Encore merci pour la consultation de mercredi : c’était un plaisir de te retrouver humainement et aussi de profiter de ton efficacité pro !! Merci encore."
- Chatted 30mins with a French YouTuber I'm a real fan of (hiiiii, and it FELT fluid and natural)
- Wrote a book (I just finished Organons V1, it's been awesome, and I already have material for a second one)
- Went through a real tough consulting session both because of the environment (construction noise, a big trigger for me), and decisions from the client I wasn't very keen on : 1H, was still efficient and coherent, and we solved the issues, everyone happy now and yeah (but now I need a nap)
- fired a client I didn't want to work with anymore (we really did not understand each other)